In medias res

Last year, on the anniversary of Roe v Wade, I had an abortion. I didn’t realize the synchronicity at the time. And I didn’t remember it was the anniversary until a moment ago, when I saw this story about Obama reaffirming the right to choose.
I regret all the circumstances, economic, cultural, interpersonal, and familial, that [...]

I’ve been paying some visits to inbound links and saying really…stress relieving…things to the forced-birth nutcases who tried to exploit my entries about having an abortion. An interesting thing has happened. Outside of a few people who probably also believe the earth is flat, many of the anti-choice links have come down. Presumably they [...]

Today’s the one-month mark from when I had the medical abortion. My check-up at Planned Parenthood yesterday gave me a clean bill of health. No pain, no infection, everything is as it should be in terms of pH and healthy bacteria…I say this because I know everyone’s interest in my vagina lags only slightly behind [...]

I have my one-month follow-up visit at Planned Parenthood this morning. The $430 cost of the medical abortion included all the visits for a month and diagnostic testing and lab work as well as the medications they dispensed on-site–antibiotics and anti-nausea patches and, yum, suppositories. I think it was a pretty good deal, given that [...]

It’s predictable. They have trouble reading. Anything about pain, they’re all over, twisting it to their ends. Of course, no comments on my updates about doing well, feeling relieved, not regretting my decision. I won’t dignify you people with any links, but I will say this: you’re pathetic liars, abusing me and my difficult experience [...]

I think that the physical suffering after the abortion prolonged the distress I felt leading up to my decision for longer than it would have otherwise lasted. With the lessening of pain and bleeding, and the return of more energy, I’ve felt better, more able to realize the relief that accompanies my sadness over what [...]

…American women have an abortion. Reading this in Kim Kluger-Bell’s excellent book, Unspeakable Losses: Healing From Miscarriage, Abortion, and Other Pregnancy Loss, I was surprised that there aren’t more accounts like mine circulating. Certainly, one reason is that no one wants to set up a target for people on the far right to say, “see, [...]

In my more maudlin moments lately, I listen to music that seems sad but hopeful. “Fix You,” for example. I’m the person who thinks it couldn’t be worse, but I’m also working to fix that person. And it will be ok.
I’ve been seeing a lot of my therapist. Kind of talking myself through the abortion [...]

Since I was not even four weeks pregnant when I found out, I had the option of a medical abortion instead of a surgical procedure. For some reason, I imagined it would be easier and feel more natural, “natural” being equated with good in some way. Of course I can handle cramping and bleeding! It [...]